I have not been writing so much on my blog lately. I feel dully guilty about this.
But not too guilty, because I have been trying to write a lot in other places. Places like my hard drive, which are not published.
I like publishing my writing, and I like my blog. Before I had my blog, I spent a huge amount of time writing emails. Emails are at least read by ONE person, I hope. I enjoy the attention, I have to say.
My email style tends to the ponderous, however. I think what I say is generally interesting, but it can get really long.
I guess I’m an e-conversation hog.
A few years ago, I noticed myself getting embroiled in long and involved, complicated e-conversations. I found myself composing the emails in my head as i went about my life: “…and this illustrates my previous point…”
This began to worry me. How much of one (or two or three or four) people’s attention could I monopolize? I thought that my emails were no longer really working well in the medium I was using.
But I was impressed by what I had written, I felt that I had reached some new understanding through the discourse. I didn’t throw them away.
But I realized that the effort I was putting into these writings was inefficient. I should put my creative energy into something a little more universal than a RE: subject line could encompass.
I thought I should spend time writing for real, not emails.
But I missed the audience. I missed knowing that it would be read.
It seemed empty, words not read like a tree falling alone in the forest. Did they really matter?
I was very pleased with the arrival of blogs. I have tremendously enjoyed my blog. Recently, I have been pushing really hard to write and post and post. I enjoy posting. And I really like posting on Blogcritics, because the readership is even larger there.
But I am brought up once again. I have the same problem with the blog that I had in email. My blogposts are somewhat ponderous. The popular blogs, it seems to me, are not as wordy as mine. People don’t want to spend a half and hour reading something on a computer monitor.
Well, it depends what it is. Maybe if it’s REALLY GOOD, then they might.
So. Then I have to be REALLY GOOD if I want to follow my inclination to ramble on and on.
Or maybe ( and here we are at the same place again) the blog is not the proper medium for some of the things I feel like I need to write.
Blogs seem to be an Extrospective kind of writing. People are commenting on politics, on popular culture, movies, TV, music, whatever. Toss off an opinion, a fact, a perspective, this seems to be what blogs are good for.
I can do that. I throw out my take on various subjects, books and movies especially. I think I do it reasonably well, although one commentor recently gave me the distinction of writing the worst movie review ever (it was for Waiting for Guffman).
But what about introspective? This particular posting is introspective. I’m not apologetic about it, but I realize that it invites a different readership with a different mindset than the extrospective stuff.
And maybe that mindset is not engaged by the computer screen.
maybe the type of writing that I am trying to do needs a little more room than a blogpost can comfortably give me.
I wonder how large MT allows posts to be? Hmm…
Blogposts have to achieve some kind of completion at the end. But writing, the kind that you get up and do for 2 hours every morning, does not need completion before you stop. The point is, it’s bigger than you can accomplish at one sitting.
And maybe that’s the next rung.
I admit, it is very satisfying to write a blogpost and finish it. It takes more discipline and organization to work on a long story and finish it.
I’d like to write longer stories though.
And I’ve been trying to work on it. Which is why my posting has slowed a bit.
It’s a shift of focus.