the answer is: there is no answer

After studying and reading like a fiend, I came up with a very carefully crafted system and schedule to starve my baby.

We just got out of the hospital where they put Veronica for “Failure to Thrive”. She was *supposed* to weigh 16 pounds by now. She actually weighed barely 10.

So, there’s nothing wrong with her that a little (read: a LOT) of extra feeding won’t cure. But I’ve kind of lost trust in all the expert now. I could feel very guilty that this happened, but I’m choosing not to. I’m just so tired of being stressed out and overwhelmed, I think I’ll stop.

We’ll see if that works