falling backwards

please please please let it be an illusion

It feels like everything that is most important to me is slipping away the harder I try for it.

I was so excited on friday..I had lost 10 pounds on my diet.

Today, I weigh in and 5 pounds are gained. I DID NOT OVER EAT!

and that is just symbolic. there are about 3 thousand things that are not happening the way they should. I want to scream with the pettiness and frustration.

I want to exchange my whole hand of cards. there is nothing

Man…there is nothing to do at a time like this.

it’s six in the morning on a monday. I used to like mondays.

I guess the only thing to do is eat my cereal, make some coffee and hit the road.

Because even when every other thing stops working, i still have to work