Do I know more than when she arrived?

Well, I know that she made it to her first

second

third

birthday.

I didn’t know that would happen when she arrived. I also didn’t know if I could make a go of this. I didn’t know that she would love me.

She does. Quite a lot. In the middle of the night.

I remember wanting to plan her 6 month birthday party. I was too tired. But I was glad that she reached it. I have learned the value of other mom friends.

That’s good.

I didn’t know it would be this hard for this long.

I think it will be this hard for even longer. But I know that I am stronger than I thought I was.

I really want to take my career to the next level. I have been stagnant for a while

I really want to take my writing to the next level.

I still need to clean out and organize my garage.

I’d like to be a better friend to the people I love.

I would like to be a better member of my community.

I would like to be more active in church.

But…I can’t do all those things at once. And a huge amount of them I don’t know how to do at all.

If, however, I look at it from my new perspective of “know what i know” I probably do have a little bit of an idea on how to start.

So..I have no comforting excuse that “i just don’t know what to do!”

I only have the not-comforting excuse of “i don’t have time!”

How very uncomforting that excuse it. Because whenever i sit down exhausted, I think “See~? You do have time. You could be doing all those things right now instead of sitting.”

Someone asked me what I do to unwind. HA!

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