you try and you try–but there are somethings you can’t affect

Haiti’s dilemma makes me so sad I can barely think about it. Just one little flicker of picturing the horror of being trapped under a building because of something that was entirely not your fault and knowing you are going to die…aaahhhhhhhhhhhg…think of something else quick.

Lots of peole are texting YELE for the Wyclef charity fund, and I think that’s great. I am telling myself I will donate after a little bit, when the rest of everybody has moved on but  Haiti is still in rubble.

Thing is, Haiti doesn’t have a lot of quakes. They have hurricanes. They build their houses  like the 3rd little pig, out of bricks, so that they would withstand the huff and the puff.

Here in california, we have quakes, so we build 2nd little pig style, out of sticks..Wood flexes and doesn’t fall down.  And let me remind all my readers, as others have been repeating, be ready for catastrophe. Get the spare water and get the food and medicine emergency kit. Okay? Cause you never know. Be prepared!

Except Haiti had been sort of trying to be prepared. THey were prepared for the likely even, a hurricane. THey were not prepared for the unlikely event.

And that makes me know that we are all very exposed to disaster. Some things you cannot see coming. THere is no such thing as being prepared enough.

I guess that is why it’s good to know how to pray. To keep your hand in, as it were, on the prayer hotline. Because when you can’t do anything, you can still pray.

Let’s pray for Haiti, and stay humble.

hard life lessons


It’s a hard lesson. Just because you love someone, it doesn’t mean they feel the same way about you.

You have to read their body language, and not just what you want to see.


computers will often behave in ways you don’t want them to. But you keep coming back.

..even when you thought you were done…

7:25 and all’s well

Tonight I plan to finish my book Liberal Fascism. It’s a very good book, and I highly recommend it.

But it is sooooo depressing.

It feels like there is a lot to be depressed about. The economy sucks, and while we are trying to cheer up over THAT fact, the sad state of our health insurance is on replay in the media.

Chris reads me the news and there is just bad news after depressing news.

I’m not in the mood for it. I don’t want to be uncertain right now. I want to feel as if I had a handle on things and a good idea about what is coming next. I don’t feel that way right now.

Of course, the reality is that even when I do feel that way it is an illusion. Who of us ever really has a handle on things?

Which is another depressing thought.

Well, here is what I know. I and mine are well. My new baby daughter is asleep and healthy in bed, and all is well.

I should count my blessings.

Happy Halloween


That’s my halloween decoration. The only one I have.

The real focus of the holiday is this little flower child:


Of course, the dog loves her too.


The flower is too small to eat candy, and also too small to be awake during the trick or treating hours.

The dog, however, is extra vigilant because the flower is small and helpless. When the doorbell rings, she will bark as loud as and long as she can. Therefore, the dog is in exile at the grandmother’s house. Flowers need their beauty sleep.