It seems funny, a tree falling in the forest, to realize how fully I always had the property rights to myself.<\/p>\n
I fought very hard a number of times to have it.<\/p>\n
I wonder, really, what I was fighting for?<\/p>\n
but then, once you have a thing and you don’t have to struggle for it<\/p>\n
if you can just leave that thing lying around anywhere and come back to it because nobody would take it because they weren’t interested<\/p>\n
Then maybe its not precious.<\/p>\n
Maybe it didn’t matter<\/p>\n
hm<\/p>\n
I don’t think that’s the right metaphor. I think instead, that the trick is like this. It’s MY magic wand. Only I can use it. Nobody else can make it work. So, nobody else wants it. But it is invaluable to me.<\/p>\n
Yes, I fought for me many a time<\/p>\n
and I won me. And i guess I still have to keep winning me.<\/p>\n
Magic wands will go dormant if they are never used.<\/p>\n
Yesterday, I spent some time playing the piano. I miss playing the piano. Naturally, I couldn’t play the upright piano. I had to play the keyboard because Veronica was asleeping. But i was trying to noodle out a jazz song that had been running through my head.<\/p>\n
I was rusty.<\/p>\n
But I still had it.<\/p>\n
And i guess it’s part of the magic wand to keep waving it.<\/p>\n
\u201cRemembering you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.\u201d -Steve Jobs<\/span><\/p>\n there are reasons, Jobs. But I guess there are very few excuses.<\/p>\n Sometimes the heart is not so clear.<\/p>\n This post was a true note-to-self. I think it was as personal as a shopping list. But my heart says “write!”<\/p>\n I suppose that I am waving my wand by doing this. It’s my wand after all.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" It seems funny, a tree falling in the forest, to realize how fully I always had the property rights to myself. I fought very hard a number of times to have it. I wonder, really, what I was fighting for? … Continue reading