{"id":1535,"date":"2012-05-07T20:34:18","date_gmt":"2012-05-08T03:34:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/?p=1535"},"modified":"2012-05-09T10:38:15","modified_gmt":"2012-05-09T17:38:15","slug":"the-agony-and-the-angst","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/2012\/05\/the-agony-and-the-angst\/","title":{"rendered":"The agony and the angst"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;ve been re-reading the wonderblog, and remembering what I was thinking back then.<\/p>\n<p>I have spent a lot of time writing on this blog about writing. I have spent a lot of time wishing and whining that I want to be an artist and creative and write and do beautiful things and think beautiful thoughts.<\/p>\n<p>I have railed against the necessity of having a job.<\/p>\n<p>However, I haven&#8217;t gotten to the part of the blog where I have a kid yet.<\/p>\n<p>I love having a job because I am not a good stay-at-home mom. I am NOT a stay at home mom, and the days when it is required that I stay at home and take care of Veronica all day are excruciating.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s better than it was, but it&#8217;s still exhausting.<\/p>\n<p>I wonder what I&#8217;ll have written come the birth?<\/p>\n<p>Because right now, I am jealous of me in January 2004. I am also remembering my struggles with my job then. I have a greater patience with my job now, sort of. It fills more than my personal need to feel useful and be fed. I have to keep my child fed too. And have a reason to brush my hair every day.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;ve been re-reading the wonderblog, and remembering what I was thinking back then. I have spent a lot of time writing on this blog about writing. I have spent a lot of time wishing and whining that I want to &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/2012\/05\/the-agony-and-the-angst\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1535","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random-thoughts"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1535","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1535"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1535\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1535"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1535"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1535"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}