{"id":1744,"date":"2012-06-18T06:07:57","date_gmt":"2012-06-18T13:07:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/?p=1744"},"modified":"2012-06-18T06:07:57","modified_gmt":"2012-06-18T13:07:57","slug":"falling-backwards","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/2012\/06\/falling-backwards\/","title":{"rendered":"falling backwards"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>please please please let it be an illusion<\/p>\n<p>It feels like everything that is most important to me is slipping away the harder I try for it.<\/p>\n<p>I was so excited on friday..I had lost 10 pounds on my diet.<\/p>\n<p>Today, I weigh in and 5 pounds are gained. I DID NOT OVER EAT!<\/p>\n<p>and that is just symbolic. there are about 3 thousand things that are not happening the way they should. I want to scream with the pettiness and frustration.<\/p>\n<p>I want to exchange my whole hand of cards. there is nothing<\/p>\n<p>Man&#8230;there is nothing to do at a time like this.<\/p>\n<p>it&#8217;s six in the morning on a monday. I used to like mondays.<\/p>\n<p>I guess the only thing to do is eat my cereal, make some coffee and hit the road.<\/p>\n<p>Because even when every other thing stops working, i still have to work<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>please please please let it be an illusion It feels like everything that is most important to me is slipping away the harder I try for it. I was so excited on friday..I had lost 10 pounds on my diet. &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/2012\/06\/falling-backwards\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1744","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random-thoughts"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1744","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1744"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1744\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1745,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1744\/revisions\/1745"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1744"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1744"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1744"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}