{"id":3689,"date":"2015-05-04T12:37:57","date_gmt":"2015-05-04T19:37:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/?p=3689"},"modified":"2015-05-04T12:37:57","modified_gmt":"2015-05-04T19:37:57","slug":"out-of-control","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/2015\/05\/out-of-control\/","title":{"rendered":"out of control"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I read book about it.<\/p>\n<p>Aisha Tyler talks about self-inflicted wounds.<\/p>\n<p>And I&#8217;m not willing. I do not walk up to that chance. I skirt and plan and avoid.<\/p>\n<p>I don&#8217;t want to get hurt. I don&#8217;t want to be out of control. I want to be sure of every step before I take it.<\/p>\n<p>And then.<\/p>\n<p>Someone asked me, &#8220;Are you willing to be out of control?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>That&#8217;s an easy form of risk. And risk is where the reward happens.<\/p>\n<p>I wonder if I can draw my eyes away from the memory of the scene of the accident.<\/p>\n<p>It was a long time ago. And maybe this time there will not be an accident, but only a miracle.<\/p>\n<p>Yeah. Peter had to step out of the boat.<\/p>\n<p>That was a lot of crazy.<\/p>\n<p>How crazy am I willing to be?<\/p>\n<p>maybe i&#8217;ll start with a little. And work my way up.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I read book about it. Aisha Tyler talks about self-inflicted wounds. And I&#8217;m not willing. I do not walk up to that chance. I skirt and plan and avoid. I don&#8217;t want to get hurt. I don&#8217;t want to be &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/2015\/05\/out-of-control\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3689","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random-thoughts"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3689","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3689"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3689\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3690,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3689\/revisions\/3690"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3689"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3689"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3689"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}