Something happened today. I could tell you what but it doesn’t matter. The specifics are unique and oh so uniform.<\/p>\n
Someone said something that made me doubt myself.<\/p>\n
There is a Greek chorus in my head waiting to perform when I doubt myself.<\/p>\n
They were on a power ballad of JUST how much I suck, how irredeemable and intolerable I am.<\/p>\n
I called someone. <\/p>\n
That helped a little. Then I talked to a person in my vicinity. That helped a little more.<\/p>\n
My hands got cold and my shoulders clenched.<\/p>\n
I didn’t want to feel that way.<\/p>\n
Why did I fall right into that self doubt? A very familiar bog. I know it’s stenchy pools well<\/p>\n
I was desperate for someone else to give me affirmation. <\/p>\n
“You’re ok”<\/p>\n
I wasn’t giving it to myself.<\/p>\n
So the tepid conversations I’d had didn’t do it.<\/p>\n
I guess sometimes I’m going to fall in the mud.<\/p>\n
I will try to have some mercy on myself. I need it especially right then<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Something happened today. I could tell you what but it doesn’t matter. The specifics are unique and oh so uniform. Someone said something that made me doubt myself. There is a Greek chorus in my head waiting to perform when … Continue reading