It\u2019s natural to want to put out a smooth exterior. I like to appear that I have things under control. Usually I do, don\u2019t I? Except for that one thing. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
And that other thing. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Until it\u2019s obvious that I am out of control and things are not smooth. Which is about where I am at now. My hair hasn\u2019t fallen out because of chemo yet, but it\u2019s coming. I can\u2019t hide it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Being vulnerable feels like a insult following the injury. It\u2019s hard enough to keep it together in these hard times, why do I have to explain to everyone why I\u2019m falling apart? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Brene Brown writes about the power of vulnerability. She\u2019s doing quite well talking about it. She has a lot of books about it. I\u2019m kinda seeing where she\u2019s right. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
It turns out that acting like I\u2019m fine is really boring. When I put it out there that I\u2019m in a struggle, facing some stuff, people have been kind. I suppose there are some people who will stay away, but the people who I barely knew who step up and held me out have been surprising. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Being the person who needs nothing leaves others out. Smooth exteriors are too slick. There are no rough edges to hang out to. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Asking for help, as it turns out, creates a connection. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Connection is very valuable. These relationships are what makes life enjoyable and precious. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
When I\u2019m feeling vulnerable, it\u2019s easy to want to hide and cover it up. But in a counterintuitive reality, showing up with my true stories brings me what I was afraid to ask for. I didn\u2019t expect it, but I\u2019m so grateful. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Maybe it wasn\u2019t insult to my injury after all. It gives me hope to look for more silver linings. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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