Nurses keep saying to me \u201cOne day at a time.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It makes me crazy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I have goals, and I have plans. These take time. In this third dimensional time space continuum the time is where the goals become reality.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And the realities don\u2019t\u2014can\u2019t! \u2013happen one day at a time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In the book Why Time flies <\/em><\/a>the author says time is in the experience of it. It\u2019s not as rigid as numbers and science would promise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n when chaos rises and the storm lands in my life<\/p>\n\n\n\n Horizons shrink<\/p>\n\n\n\n living space is far smaller than one day.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I can only occupy the<\/p>\n\n\n\n next step<\/p>\n\n\n\n next sip<\/p>\n\n\n\n next breath<\/p>\n\n\n\n only when peace returns can I can see further<\/p>\n\n\n\n once again I can reach for something else<\/p>\n\n\n\n something more<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dreams, wishes and aspirations\u2026my days can contain more<\/p>\n\n\n\n Small horizons are for small people. I am not fighting this hard to be small.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cI am large\u2014I contain multitudes.\u201d Walt Whitman said it in Leaves of Grass.<\/em> I want to be large. Can I contain the multitudes of dreams I carry?<\/p>\n\n\n\n How to fill my time, attention and energy with worthwhile things is a goal in itself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I think of J. Alfred Prufrock\u2019s lament,<\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n I have measured out my life with coffee spoons\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n I find the strength to push away the tiny dreams. I will lift up mine eyes to the hills<\/a>\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tiny steps on big ambitions. Like Mary Oliver said, this is my one wild and precious life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Back to Leaves of Grass:<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n The past and present wilt\u2014I have fill’d them, emptied them. I will redeem my time.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Nurses keep saying to me \u201cOne day at a time.\u201d It makes me crazy. I have goals, and I have plans. These take time. In this third dimensional time space continuum the time is where the goals become reality. And … Continue reading
And proceed to fill my next fold of the future.<\/p>\n\n\n\n