I\u2019m hearing some people say that thoughts unspoken and not really thought. Writing it out is certainly better than getting my thought circulatory system clogged up with unthought ideas\u2026Or maybe I could say undigested thoughts.
I imagine getting backed up with thoughts or half-grown concepts and ideas begging for a chance to grow. Or dying like grass and cluttering my brain with underbrush that I\u2019ve not cleared away.
I do have a set of wonderful smart people with whom I can conversate. I love having long talks to think through what is going on in my mind, my life and the world. But the way things are in my life mostly I write things.
My world is small. I go very few places and see very few people. I would rather go more places and have adventures
However, my body is weak. My mind is weak too. My edge is dull and so is my life. I\u2019m still thinking things. Often in the middle of the night when I can\u2019t sleep.
There is a weird tangle of briar thoughts that I can\u2019t quite deal with. They can\u2019t quite finish growing and I can\u2019t quite find the time to finish the incomplete half thoughts I am thinking.
I had been accustomed to my body working a certain way, and even more so my brain. This medical treatment\u2014targeted poison\u2014has left me in a surreal twilight.
Just wait. This will pass. Like the water crashing on the beach, leaving the sand rippling and smooth.
I do well not to focus on the crash, and to keep looking for the smooth ripple that will come.
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I\u2019m hearing some people say that thoughts unspoken and not really thought. Writing it out is certainly better than getting my thought circulatory system clogged up with unthought ideas\u2026Or maybe I could say undigested thoughts. I imagine getting backed up … Continue reading