I wake in the morning and feel my body and my world around me now, it\u2019s a foreign country. I will get up from bed and walk down the hall—it\u2019s my familiar house but my body doesn\u2019t work like it used to. I move forward at the same vector and thrust around a corner to find my steadiness can\u2019t keep up with the usual pace.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I veer off balance woozy and weak again tilting toward a wall<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Oh right. Instruments hit the red sooner than expected.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I set feet, spread balance evenly between the left and right, drop my knees and get my balance. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
New territory takes fresh response. And a keen awareness that the ground is still shifting.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I flash back. I\u2019ve walked this forest before.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Landed in the far east, a foreigner in a landlocked city walking the streets to find what I needed. Food and friends, not in that order. Every corner, every conversation was a surprise and possibly a dangerous one.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I loved it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I was 19 and adventure of any kind was what I wanted. I explored those streets without ceasing, to see what could be discovered.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I wanted to know the edges and go beyond them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This body I\u2019m living in today is very similar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What can I do? Yes, I can\u2019t go as fast as I used to. But what if I try it this way? What if I start slow then pick up speed? Will my own momentum carry me better in a straight line?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s not so different from the forests on the edge of town in Russia. Sure, it\u2019s dangerous kinda. Maybe. But the game is to see what is possible.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The beat went over the mountain to see what he could see.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am going to see what my current horizon shows me, and them peek over it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
That\u2019s always been my way.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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