126 days of Chemo and I\u2019m absolutely stir crazy to do something fun. Me and a 21 year old friend went to see Taylor Swift\u2019s Eras concert movie. I figured I could sit in a chair for a few hours and see a spectacle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It was incredible. I didn\u2019t start out as a Swifty, but I\u2019m converted. She put on an amazing glamorous, musical and suprisingly intimate show.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She is a very beautiful woman, with so many costume changes and an astounding body of work. It reminded me of Cher\u2019s Believe<\/em> <\/strong>tour which I also saw\u2026in 1999, the year after Taylor was born<\/p>\n\n\n\n So much glamor, so many beautiful outfits and long blonde hair. I took it in huddling under two jackets shivering from anemia and AC blowing on my nearly naked head.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I felt very far from glamour and too weak to climb the cliff to get closer to it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I wanted to collapse into a pile of pity. I had become a pile of misfit pieces, scraps half discarded and others pulled out of costume prop factories held together with pins and glue.<\/p>\n\n\n\n The show didn\u2019t let me linger in my pity, because there was a new song or dance move every time I fell into that trap<\/p>\n\n\n\n When I got home and told my husband about it, he said \u201cTaylor Swift isn\u2019t even Taylor Swift.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Oh yeah. She has costume props too\u2026but with a bigger budget and a staff to help.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I remember when I was learning to put on the eyelashes. It was not easy. I landed that stickey strip on an unnatural angle. I would leave it there because I knew I couldn\u2019t do better in the time I had before my first video meeting of the day.<\/p>\n\n\n\n The camera was forgiving, and I looked good enough. At the end of the day, my off angle lashes would still be haning on, and I\u2019d confess to people I saw in person that I\u2019d been learning to put in the falsies.<\/p>\n\n\n\n They didn\u2019t care that it wasn\u2019t real looking. It didn\u2019t matter that it wasn\u2019t right.<\/p>\n\n\n\n In the end, my friends and associated responded to my smile and welcoming positive attitude.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I\u2019m hard on myself. It could be enough to open up my heart, and sing along to the parts I know. Most people don\u2019t know all the lyrics, but I know I will have a better time if can stay in the spirit of enjoying the show<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" 126 days of Chemo and I\u2019m absolutely stir crazy to do something fun. Me and a 21 year old friend went to see Taylor Swift\u2019s Eras concert movie. I figured I could sit in a chair for a few hours … Continue reading