There are a lot of ways to figure out where to go. Humans are social animals, so it follows that when we get in a new situation, we look around to what other people are doing and where they are going.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Unfamiliar situations are uncomfortable and scary. I like to get situated, get my bearings and have an idea where I am going. I want to get in a groove, have a sense of what to expect. Five months ago, I got my first dose of chemo and started to map the territory. After the first dose I got an idea of what to expect with the chemo infusion. Then the days and weeks after how I would feel and what was going to happen. It wasn\u2019t the same every time, but I had a sort of confidence with the experience.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When people started making maps, they drew what they knew. Then they realized there was more, but they didn\u2019t know what was in the unknown.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
That is where they drew monsters.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sea monsters<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Devils<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dragons<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s scary in the dark. I don\u2019t know what\u2019s around the corner. It\u2019s got to be nasty. I mean, I don\u2019t know it is but I\u2019m afraid of it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Like shadows cast in my imagination it is spooky and scary.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
After all this, I find myself at the beginning again, having to be brave in the unknown.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I was hoping I was past that part.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It seems the map makers had it right. The monsters aren\u2019t going anywhere.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I will have to keep my bravery at the ready. I never wanted to stay on the same paths. I will find strange corners I\u2019ve never encountered before.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Adventures are not comfortable things.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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