Cleaning out a cupboard, I found a stash of plastic grocery bags. It has been a while since I got into the back of that cupboard, because these were from when the stores gave you a bag for free. I kept them so I could reuse them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Except in this case, I hadn\u2019t reused them. I\u2019d stuffed them back into the back of my attention and forgot. Bags of bags.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What would I put in these bags? I thought the bags would have a use. But they took up space in my kitchen. Years ago, I stopped seeing them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sometimes bags hold things for me. Sometimes things hold onto me and accumulate. Like bags under my eyes. Or bags in the back of the cupboards<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When I discovered those bags I saw the truth of this choice I made and forgot. It limited my possibilities and cluttered my life. I made space and accepted these without a second thought.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
If I asked myself what bothers me in my life or my environment, I have a fast response, and I could roll on the topic of things that need to be fixed or improved. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
It was appalling to suddenly see what I\u2019d been tolerating for so long. Willful ignorance of the sneakiest kind. What else have I become intentionally blind about?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s a new year. I\u2019m ready to ditch old habits for new ones. My cupboard full of bags of trash is a splash of cold water to my smug confidence. I need to check myself. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019ve been coasting on a set of assumptions. Some of them are helpful. I\u2019m just not sure which are and which aren\u2019t. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s never convenient to re-examine my behaviors. I\u2019m just trying to go live my life. And I can go about my life in a straight line. I\u2019ll step around that thing. Then jump over that gulch, duck to get under that overhang and get straight to it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
How easy it is to contort myself to keep it simple! I end up in absurd contradiction.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Like finding out I\u2019ve got toilet paper stuck to my shoe. With humiliation, I wonder how many people have seen it. I do not resent the time it takes to fix it. I only wish I could have fixed it sooner<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I want to get myself proper for the new year. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Cleaning out a cupboard, I found a stash of plastic grocery bags. It has been a while since I got into the back of that cupboard, because these were from when the stores gave you a bag for free. I … Continue reading