NEWS WIRE:
Jan 16th, I had my last radiation treatment. That day I got the results of my PET scan. My body shows no sign of any more breast cancer. Treatments are done, and I can move into maintenance. I\u2019ll go in for regular checkups and move past the breast cancer.
There is still the second thyroid cancer. That treatment is scheduled for February 2nd, and I will have to stay 3 feet away from people for a week, as well as take some precautions not to radiate others. But I will be able to put on bow on it on February 9th and get on with the efforts to get strong and have stamina again.
Back to Regular Programming:
It was a year ago. It was just a regularly scheduled mammogram.
No problem.
Then it was a closer look.
A little worry and dread slowed my steps
Then it was a biopsy and a diagnosis.
Fear walked with me. And death came out of the mist and waited with me for what was next.
Fear has a camp follower:
Shame
The dread made me want to cover it up. Nothing to see here; I can handle this.
It\u2019s embarrassing to have something be WRONG with me. Cover it up, move along.
Maybe if I can fake it, it will go away.
Maybe if I show I am the slow one, the predators will come.
Shame and fear feed on each other. Because I was afraid I tried to hide it. I didn\u2019t talk about the diagnosis until April, when I was headed into surgery. I hoped it would go away
This was live fire coming at me. I wasn\u2019t sure where to turn.
I can see that shame has been with me as well as fear.
I know more about defending against it. Cancer was only one of the enemies.
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NEWS WIRE: Jan 16th, I had my last radiation treatment. That day I got the results of my PET scan. My body shows no sign of any more breast cancer. Treatments are done, and I can move into maintenance. I\u2019ll … Continue reading