The days have run out. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I finished. I\u2019m done with all the big cancer treatments. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am remembering the story of Jonah. He\u2019s famous for being swallowed by a whale. But the whale wasn\u2019t the end of the story. It was an interstitial adventure that happened while he was on his MISSION to go talk to Nineveh about how God was going to destroy them if they did not repent.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019ve spend a year with very short horizons. Get through a surgery\u2026Get through 4 doses of chemo\u2026No, just this one dose. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ok, just this one day.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And then\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Jonah was in the whale for three nights. He didn\u2019t know how long it would be. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I was told how long my treatment would be. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
And now it\u2019s over. I am cancer free.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Barfed up on the beach by my former prison, the whale.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What was I doing again? What was it that was so important that I lost sleep and plotted and planned? What were my dreams again?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
That\u2019s one story.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Then there was that other story, the one where Joshua got his army to march around the walls of Jericho. There was a formula for that one. He was supposed to march his army around the walls once a day, and on the seventh day go around seven times, blow the trumpet and THEN the walls would fall down.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I wonder if Joshua and his army were thinking about after the walls fell?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s a lot of tension. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Will they fall? After seven days of nothing, and THEN they fall?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
As the story goes, they walls fell down and they took the city. It was a bloody scene of victory.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am now standing in the rubble of the wall. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don\u2019t know if I\u2019m the army or the rubble. Truly, I would like to be the victorious army. But I feel like a rubble.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When I was counting the days that remained I was imagining the feeling of victory. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I knew I\u2019d still be weak, but I was hoping I could shake it off. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
If I\u2019m the rubble, I\u2019ll have to have patience as I rebuild myself. If I\u2019m the army, I can start yelling.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I really am both, so I\u2019ll do both as best I can. It\u2019s my story now.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
The days have run out. I finished. I\u2019m done with all the big cancer treatments. I am remembering the story of Jonah. He\u2019s famous for being swallowed by a whale. But the whale wasn\u2019t the end of the story. It … Continue reading