I\u2019ve always been a systems person. Some people think of it as habits. I have systems and I work them consistently\u2014even when I was very little. It makes sense to me, and I like getting things done that way.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But a year ago, I was shaking as I looked into the future of a big surgery. Then all the things that came after that. All the things that I put my body through.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In ways I never had before, I let go of anything that wasn\u2019t necessary. It took all I had to do the basics. The minimum took all I had.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Old habits fell away.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And now I\u2019m coming up from the depths. I\u2019m still not sure which way is up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I had to take an online class for work, so I chose one on time management. An easy basic that I could do without thinking about it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Until I was hearing the systems the teacher was pushing. I knew all this!
This was basic, stuff I was already and expert at.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Except.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I realized I\u2019d lost my expertise. I\u2019d put these skills down on the side of this road.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Can I pick it up again? Am I ready?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Questions must be asked.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Last week I walked a labyrinth. I\u2019ve talked before about the joy I have in walking the twisted meditative path I find in a labyrinth. Last time I walked one was before this cancer journey.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And this time, I went into the labyrinth and walked layers of time. While in the present, I remembered who I was the first time I walked it. I remembered the push and the urgency I felt, the drive to get THERE.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What is there has changed significantly. The surroundings have added so much to the way. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am thinking, these new old habits are changed too. I\u2019m seeing how things fit together, now that I\u2019ve experienced a different way of attacking my basics. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
New systems could replace automatic habits. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I\u2019ve always been a systems person. Some people think of it as habits. I have systems and I work them consistently\u2014even when I was very little. It makes sense to me, and I like getting things done that way. But … Continue reading