This is rare. I make sure to write this essay every week. I\u2019ve blogged for 22 years and sent out this weekly wonder email for more than ten years. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s part of my identity. I never missed it during my chemo treatments, and I am fairly certain I didn\u2019t miss it anytime before.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And yet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I have two hours to write something, and I\u2019m not even sure what it will be.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019ve been waking up and trying to get back to \u2026normal?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This makes me think of what we were all saying during the COVID lockdowns: the new normal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I spent this weekend working the Coachella festival event. Before I got this job, I would never have aspired to go to this event. It seemed like something that was too high above me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But then I got a job at the company that puts it on. I was very thrilling with anticipation. Especially to see the technical side, which is even more exclusive. I could hardly wait to get there.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Until I was surprised with cancer news. Surgery was scheduled last year on the very first day.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
No Coachella 2023 for me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s been quite a year. I had the festival on my mind as I tracked my appointments and timed when I would have my strength back to experience the festival.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What I didn\u2019t properly account for what how depleted I would be the day after.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The entire weekend I was at the festival and was knock flat by so many things. What an event!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And the next few days I could barely function. This is the wednesday after, I realized I forgot to write this essay.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My mind was so full, and so physically exhausted that I couldn\u2019t tease out the thread of a profound thought to explore.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Gravity has increased for me so that I couldn\u2019t get out of bed. I had so many experiences\u2014sights, sounds, feelings and sensation\u2014that I\u2019m still exploring.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My world got so small\u2014in COVID and then again last year. This festival reminded me of how big and beautiful the world can be, and that I\u2019m invited to be part of it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
This is rare. I make sure to write this essay every week. I\u2019ve blogged for 22 years and sent out this weekly wonder email for more than ten years. It\u2019s part of my identity. I never missed it during my chemo … Continue reading