I have this hope that time will be a stable thing. I want to be solid and unchanging, like a good chair that I use every day.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s not just the chair though. There are a lot of players in the field of time. The sun rises and sets. The moon waxes and wanes and at the end of of a week comes the weekend. The end of rhe week is still part of the week, but it feels like a different world. It\u2019s a marker that sets it apart and then launches the next week strong.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Until it doesn\u2019t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This weekend wasn\u2019t a weekend, because I worked Saturday and Sunday. I was out in the desert for the country music festival. I slept out there, woke up at dawn and drove home to start my day. My work day.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I got messed up and distracted from what day was what. I was not as tired as last time, which might have made me evern more distracted.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
There are rungs, like a ladder or a set of monkey bars that I swing off. These habit make the rhythm and the shape of my life. This weekly wonder has been part of that shape, one that is really important to me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I make a point of it. For more than a decade now, it\u2019s been what I do. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am an artist and a writer. That\u2019s what I want to be.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But am I a writer if I don\u2019t write? I better write.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Just like that riddle about the tree falling in the forest, if I write and no one reads it did it really count?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don\u2019t want to have to find out.I want tokeep my habit of writing in public.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The thoughts in my head almost every week include \u201cno one would notice if I didn\u2019t do this. It doesn\u2019t matter.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But it matters to me enough that I keep doing it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m grateful to my readers \u2013to you!\u2014for sustaining my desire to be and my identity as a writer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This is something we are doing together.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I have this hope that time will be a stable thing. I want to be solid and unchanging, like a good chair that I use every day. It\u2019s not just the chair though. There are a lot of players in … Continue reading