You have to be 35 to be president.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Like a boundary marker, this one stands out. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Most of adulthood is unmapped. There are sea monsters and dragons in the blanks. I will have to fill in those spaces with discoveries from my own discoveries and interpretations.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My year and a half of cancer fighting is behind me, but the experience jolted the timeline and I fell into an alternate universe. I was poisoned which made me sick and stupid and I was not myself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But the fight is behind me, right? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Isn\u2019t it? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am trying to populate in the part where I merge back.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Is it there a back to get to? Or did the reroute of the integration plan take me to a completely new alternative universe?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What familiar milestones would tell me if I am on the map of myself?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I already wrote about this experience making me 80 years old before my time. I want to exit the era of premature elderliness and become the age I am now.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Somehow, though, the current moment remains unmapped.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m turned around and lost track of the landmarks.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When it comes to adulthood, there is a literature on how to live your life and achieve goals.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Some books say \u2018remember what you liked to do when you were little. The child person was able to be joyful and not hesitate to do fun things.\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I can have fun, sure. But even as a little kid I did have people I wanted to stay connected to, that took care of me and whom I took care of.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m thinking of that 35-year-old. That person might be thinking about becoming president. More frequently, that person is not on the presidential track. Either way, a 35-year-old is expected to be capable of read a situation and make choices.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I meet that requirement to be president, even if I\u2019m not running. I will have to be the leader of myself, although I do feel lost and turned around. I\u2019d better look for the sea monsters to avoid<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This is unfamiliar territory, and it\u2019s not what I expected. Nevertheless, I will have to identify or create the milestones that let me know what I\u2019m aiming towards. I have to look for the treasure islands I want to land on.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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