I have been thinking that I should be a lot further along.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Aren\u2019t I supposed to be further along that where I stand?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I remember times that I\u201dve climbed a mountains. When I got tired and I\u2019d look back at what I\u2019d travelled and realize I had covered so much ground. So satisfying to see the snake of a trail that I\u2019d walked bedhind me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I did that. It gave me courage to push to the summit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And this February, this week, I am looking backwards and I am seeing that I am just about exactly where I was last year.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Another surgery, another dose of radioactive iodine\u2014and another despairing essay for my weekly wonder.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What am I supposed to look back on? It\u2019s been a long long path.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Now I remember the labyrinth. So many time I\u2019ve walked the labyrinth and felt the conufusing winding path that gives me hope and then takes it away again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
As I am looking for hope right now, I will shre with you and with myself a piece I\u2019ve already written 12 years ago.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The center of the labyrinth\u2013that is supposed to be the meaning, the goal and the reason. People have always had reasons and goals.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And that is why the labyrinth has been around so long. There is something to it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019ve walked these before. Somehow, though, that standing stone in the middle was different.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I wanted<\/em> that rock. Up in the path, and it is right there. whoops, no, swing around to the left.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Don\u2019t worry though. I will get there. Look, I am almost there.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Whoops, no, and again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n And THIS time I am walking all the way around a circle like I have nowhere to go or anything to care about and doesn\u2019t matter because I\u2019ll never get there anyway.<\/p>\n\n\n\n that rock<\/p>\n\n\n\n in the center<\/p>\n\n\n\n once I reach that rock in the center every desire I have will be fulfilled<\/p>\n\n\n\n and I want that rock<\/p>\n\n\n\n and it\u2019s right there<\/p>\n\n\n\n but it<\/p>\n\n\n\n TAKES SO FREAKING LONG TO GET TO THAT ROCK!!!!!<\/p>\n\n\n\n until I got there<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I have been thinking that I should be a lot further along. Aren\u2019t I supposed to be further along that where I stand? I remember times that I\u201dve climbed a mountains. When I got tired and I\u2019d look back at … Continue reading