Couple months ago I was stuck. i was stuck in a sad rut, thinking about and thinking again about stuff that hurt to think about.<\/p>\n
I decided that whatever it took i was going to stop thinking about it. I worked hard to think about something ELSE. I even took a recording device and recorded myself talking about a project I was working on, which DIDn”T hurt. I recorded myself, listened to the recording, and then said more things about that thing that didn’t hurt.<\/p>\n
After a long time, I was able to stop picking the scab. Because I just decided to stop.<\/p>\n
So, I am thikning about how I might apply this to other things. What if I just stopped doing something i don’t like and substituted with something I like better?<\/p>\n
what if I could learn to write instead of read? What if instead of running away to escape into a book, I could escape into WRITING \u00a0a book.<\/p>\n
I don’t think it works that way. But I didnt think that fighting my depression worked that way either.<\/p>\n
I would be better off if I wrote more and read less.<\/p>\n
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Couple months ago I was stuck. i was stuck in a sad rut, thinking about and thinking again about stuff that hurt to think about. I decided that whatever it took i was going to stop thinking about it. I … Continue reading