It\u2019s called crowd surfing. Usually at a concert, someone falls onto a crowd of people with their arms above their heads. Their hands and their arms all carry the one person, everyone helping, and he moves over the crowd.\u00a0 He would be too heavy for any one of them, but everyone together can carry him easily.<\/p>\n
I\u2019ve never done it but it looks amazing. I don\u2019t think I would have the courage and the trust to throw my body over a bunch of people. I would fall.<\/p>\n
I couldn\u2019t have that kind of faith.<\/p>\n
Except in other ways I have that kind of faith all the time. \u00a0I trust my husband with my heart. I trust my job with my hopes and ambitions. My husband has a very precious trust, and I picked him carefully. I tested and tried his worthiness. To my chagrin, I often still try him to make sure I can trust him.<\/p>\n
Like kicking a support on a bridge you are already crossing.<\/p>\n
Then there are other times, when I let myself be vulnerable, that strangers or near strangers will come and pick up the burden.\u00a0 I was terrified of some dental work I had to do last year, and a lot of people talked to me and helped with the fear. When I trusted people with my humiliating silly problem, I threw some faith into the wishing well, and they helped carry me. Like the people underneath a crowd surfer.<\/p>\n
Beautiful.<\/p>\n
When it\u2019s good, it is beautiful. But trust can be broken, and the faith can be betrayed. It happens.<\/p>\n
I would recover from falling at a concert. But the kind of trust I put in my husband, and my friends, it takes a long time to recover from a fall like that. And it can paralyze you.<\/p>\n
Don\u2019t do it! Don\u2019t leap! The ouch is too big.<\/p>\n
When it happens, yeah. It can be really big, that ouch.<\/p>\n
But if it hasn\u2019t happened, and you\u2019re only afraid it might\u2026well, you\u2019re only afraid.<\/p>\n
It is a risk. Those people below might not catch you.<\/p>\n
And your lover might betray you.<\/p>\n
When I abide, and try to keep my faith, I find that there are just enough people, just enough random acquaintances and strangers who show up.<\/p>\n
Didn\u2019t expect that guy to help me move. Never knew that one\u2019s name, but she told me the perfect encouraging thing.<\/p>\n
It keeps the balance tipped towards faith. If you can keep the faith.<\/p>\n
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It\u2019s called crowd surfing. Usually at a concert, someone falls onto a crowd of people with their arms above their heads. Their hands and their arms all carry the one person, everyone helping, and he moves over the crowd.\u00a0 He … Continue reading