{"id":5114,"date":"2020-07-22T12:52:00","date_gmt":"2020-07-22T19:52:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/?p=5114"},"modified":"2020-07-19T15:55:39","modified_gmt":"2020-07-19T22:55:39","slug":"not-again","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/writtenbymurphy.com\/wonderblog\/2020\/07\/not-again\/","title":{"rendered":"Not again"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>If I have to do it more than once, I should do it better the\nsecond time. That\u2019s what I aim for, and I mostly hit it. Mostly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But if I\u2019m staying in a hotel for a weekend, I don\u2019t make\nthe effort to organize everything. Doesn\u2019t seem worth it. I\u2019ll only be there a\ncouple days.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>That\u2019s how I\u2019ve been living in this pandemic. Like it was a\nweekend. It\u2019s stretching out. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I\u2019m doing these same things again and again, and I am not\ndoing them well. It\u2019s time to act like I live here.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Things have changed, while I was thinking they would revert.\nThe world has settled into a groove when I thought we were at a traffic light.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I joined a virtual summit this week about how to communicate\nvirtually. How\u2019s that for meta? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But we are all talking through cameras and laptop speakers.\nI think that I need to get better at it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Last month it was enough just to turn my camera on. But almost everyone is doing that now. I will need to bring more to the party.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<h3 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Bringing More<\/h3>\n\n\n\n<p>How can I bring more of myself to my online communications?\nHow can I be there for others?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yes, I could buy a better microphone. And better lighting. I\nmay do that. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But one of the keynotes at the summit had another slant:\nbring more of my best self. Fatima Doman had a talk about using authentic\nstrengths while communicating.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I know this technology. It\u2019s not the lighting, it\u2019s the\nlove. It\u2019s the welcome and the curiosity that makes my communications addictive.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And when I say addictive, I mean addictive for ME. Sure, I\nwant other people to want to talk to me. But I want to have my meetings and\nconversations be a sincere delight.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>That means I can\u2019t phone it is. I have to bring my attention\nto it, and find the miracle. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>There will always be a miracle. It\u2019s my job to spend enough\ntime and attention to find it. It might not take long.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I\u2019m not willing to settle for short-term living. Wherever\nthe horizon is, it is too short. I need to aim past it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I\u2019ve been falling short. I\u2019m going to get up, dust myself\noff and try again, with my expectations set for endurance. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Some things never change. I know for sure I won\u2019t get it right\nthe first time. But I will keep trying.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>If I have to do it more than once, I should do it better the second time. That\u2019s what I aim for, and I mostly hit it. Mostly. 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