I finally finished the powerpoint presentation. Even as I say that, I wonder if I am using an outdated phrase.

I used to feel confident about what I know, and unconcerned about what other people called it. But this presentation was really hard to create. I was increasingly convinced that I was the problem.

A Greek chorus was singing that I didn’t have skills anymore. What once was now is not. The chorus yowls that the world has moved on and I have no place in anymore.

Every problem was bigger than me, and anything could get me off track.

Desperate, I used every trick to get to done. And I did.

Which leads me to today. I have to write MORE. I maintain the wonderblog, which is made up of this Weekly Wonder.

More writing? I have to face the shrieks of the chorus again.

WHY do I do this?

I wonder.

Oh.

I started this blog to write about wonder. It was fun to name it the Wonder blog! The phrase itself has a superhero cape.

But really, the blog has been about curiosity, exploration and investigation.

Wonder.

The word feels spacious. Open, not shrunken.

Not scary. Wonder is peaceful excitement.

There is room for me. I can move into it and through it.

Caterwauling chorus must be left behind.

I wasn’t thinking about it as I worked through that scary powerpoint. I’d put enough reps in that it came through the onslaught.

I practice wonder, and am dedicated to the discipline.