I am feeling like writing.
But I am full of too much to write.
Okay, so I will write a list. Maybe it will mean something when I am done.
LIST OF WHAT I AM WEARING (VISIBLE PORTION ONLY)
lipstick (onsale, and slightly melted from being left in the car) VINTAGE MAUVE
BIG coby headphones
pretty gold and jewel earings
white shirt with french cuffs. The shirt WOULD be crisp if I had ironed it, but I didn’t, so I am wearing
Danskin hoodie, teal, which I bought while wandering around bored after work in San Diego. Work trips leave you out of sorts.
Ipod in my pocket, which is not visible, so I shouldn’t count it but I am anyway.
Jeans, with the up-and-down white threads that were fashionable last year in the same way that acid wash was fashionable in the late 80s and which will probably look as dated even faster but which make me feel slightly cool even though I know they are not really cool anymore, if I were a fashionista—oh, and there is a hole on the right thigh.
brown suede nike high-tops
Oh yeah, and a silver watch which is probably broken since it is not waterproof and got overly humidified in san diego and now has condensation on the inside of the glass.
hmmm…That doesn’t really leave me with things to talk about. Maybe I need another list
I know I need to make a list of the things I want to do. i have a lot of good things happening. I tell you the truth, I feel strange with out more stress in my life.
My projects seem small and insignificant.
i remember when I worked at McDonald’s as a teenager. I remember the slow times. I felt like I was stuck in molasses. I couldn’t move fast, because when it was slow, there was no reason, no pressure to do so.
My manager would tell me to move faster. It was a high-pressure environment. But I just couldn’t be inspired.
I did okay. I was never fired from mcDonald’s or reprimanded in any way. I did speed up when the customers lined up.
But, when you don’t have something pushing you, it’s hard to push yourself.
So, i feel like writing. But I have to get my thoughts a little better organized before I can begin.
I guess i need to take the time to do that.