wondering and wandering
It was becoming clear to me that downtown was for pedestrians. How had I never noticed this before? Perhaps this Friday was worse for foot traffic than usual.
I was not on foot. I was driving and I had two errands to do for work. One was to have a meeting with a new business contact, and another was to drop off a large amount of binders and paperwork.
I was late to the first meeting. I had forgotten how bad traffic was. The second problem was that I had put the address for where I was meeting the guy in my GPS.
This is another issue with downtown. I have to put my car somewhere while I go to the actual destination.
I hung a Ricky and found a parking structure. I hoped it wasn’t too far from the skyscraper that was my destination. Also, no chance for validation. One other catch: cash only.
Oh yeah. Cash is easy for under-the-table economies. I checked–I had a 20 and a few singles.
Hop out and walk the blocks to my meeting. He was generous about how late I was, and I accomplished my mission.
Now back to my car. I was starving. But this cash economy had me strapped.
Did I drive to the next location? Or walk with the heavy box?
I did have a cart with wheels.
But downtown Los Angeles was hilly.
I checked the GPS. It said a mile.
One big factor was that the person I needed to deliver the documents to might not be there, and I might have to walk back with them.
It was decision time. What would I choose?
I decided to drive.
I drove out of the parking garage and got $2.50. I hoped the next parking garage took credit cards. Deeper downtown probably would.
The GPS couldn’t get signal inside the parking garage, so I couldn’t tell which direction I was supposed to turn when I got to the street. I turned left, hoping that was it.
I had to stop a lot, because of all the passengers going through the crosswalks. Good thing because it took time to get the turns from my GPS.
And when I thought I could turn right, I encountered a one-way street.
And now came that demon.
That demon which says “You made the wrong choice. You should have walked. This is taking too long and it would have been better to do it the other way.”
I engaged with that demon for a while, trying to figure out if that were true.
Had I made a stupid decision? Was this a dreadful mistake?
This kind of demon pops up a lot.
He’s my companion on most large projects. Did I do this right? Surely everyone but me would have seen the easy way to do it. Surely I am missing something and I am doing it all wrong.
This Friday, I quickly realized it was not helpful. I’d made my decision, and I couldn’t turn back anyway. By car, it was more like 5 miles to get to the next building.
But I got there. I would not have gotten then nearly as fast if I had turned around and second-guessed myself.
That’s the thing. Making a decision, even if it’s not the best decision of all possible decision in a universe of infinite possibilities, is the most productive thing to do.