obey

My cute dog is learning to heel. She almost doesn’t need to be bribed anymore.

The only trouble is she wants to jump on people. She wants to jump and twirl and generally wiggle at other people, cats, and dogs.

She loves cats.

She is very gentle in most situations, but the initial greeting protocol requires a lot of jumping. I should find out how to introduce another greeting ritual.

outrage

It occurs to me that I am tired of outrage.

What’s up with all this outrage all the time? I’m weary of it in other people, mostly as it expresses itself politically.

But I am more than weary of it in myself. Why am I always encountering things that are so far from the way they should be? I generally find this to be so in business.

Outrage has a long shelflife. It doesn’t roll off into quiescence. It stick around, like an artesian well…It just keeps bubbling up.

 

Halt. I don’t want to face any more outrageous situations.

i’d prefer to laugh and be silly

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Just read an article in the journal about new ways for blogs to make money.

 

And notice, I have upgraded my site and now the monthly archives on the side show a (number). That number says how many posts I made in that month, all the way back to ’02 when I started this thing.

 

The numbers are embarrassingly low. I thought I posted 3, 4,5 times a week. Which would mean…at least 12 posts a month.

 But I post less than that.

 

The article suggests that if you take a site with 2000 visitors a day, you could make almost $800 in ad revenue.

 

I do not have 2000 visitors a day.

 

But maybe I would have more visitors if I posted more. Maybe then my site wouldn’t just be the internet resource for information about the camia flower and how to make popcorn.

 

Those are the two most popular posts. Two things that I would never have considered so important have turned out to be the only reason google remembers my name.

SO the lesson learned: Spew forth nonsense frequently. I might hit a jackpot.

My Mentors

One thing I avoid on this blog is naming names. I think that the internet strips us of our information privacy enough. When I talk bout specific people, I usually do it in an elliptical way so that unless you know me, you wouldn’t really know who they are.

Well, today I want to honor some men, and I will name names. If they ever google themselves, they can find out when they meant to me.

It’s been a tough week at work. Problem that should have been fixed in a day were talking upwards of a month.It was taking crews of people to work on them, and I was finding a lot of “It’s not my job” and the more appealing but no more helpful “i don’t know.”

I’ve been doing this sort of work for more than 10 years now. It doesn’t feel that long, but I find myself at the end of it and dismayed to discover that I”m supposed to know what I’m doing.

I know a lot more than I used to. When I first started, I had to ask so many questions. I like to tell the story of how I simply could not make sense of the terminology. T1? PRI? What are they, and what is the difference? I wrote down the terms on 3×5 cards like I did when learning vocabulary in Russian.

But when I started, I found some mentors.I did not think of them as such at the time, but wow. They helped me so much.

These men, and yes, they were ALL men, patiently answered my questions with pictures and examples, letting me know what was what. How to troubleshoot by dissecting the system and knowing what should happen where and the tools that would tell me when it wasn’t. How to speak to the beauracratic heldesks and far-flung facilities to get what I needed as quickly as I possible, and to know that things would never happen as quickly as I thought they should.

These men loved the knowing and the discovery of the technology. I did too,and they were so generous with helping me out.

I met the other kinds too. There is that other kind of nerd, the one who needs to make others feel stupid so he can feel smart. But the men who were my mentors had no insecurities about their knowledge and expertise–at least not that it showed to me.

SO, Val Watson of Nasa Ames, thanks for taking me on and being patient with my ignorance. You started me on my career. Where would I be without you?

And John Broadus of Visa/Inovant, you who started working for the phone company at 18 and worked until they gave you money to retire. You worked again at Visa, and you showed me what it meant to work with a big company. Important lessons like how to tell when the boss means it and when you can ignore it….That’s a technical skill and it saved my overly-literal butt many many times. You gave me lots of IT answers too, but I remember you best for how you survived and thrived inside big companies.

Mike Stevens of Visa/Inovant–you taught me more than anybody else.You know your stuff and I would not have made it without you.I don’t use ISDN anymore, but if I do, I won’t forget the IMUXES ever again.

John Yost of the ever-changing company shirt..I met you when you were VTEL, and I can’t remember how many name changes until you it became WireOne. Maybe it’s changed again, for all I know. You always knew your stuff, and were the greatest as a troubleshooting partner. Wish you well.

The Dave Albertson of O’Melveny & Myers. DAMN I miss you dude. You were so cool and had a wicked sense of humor. I don’t know where you are anymore, but I bet you’re working very long hours, because you wouldn’t have it any other way.

My current position doensn’t have ‘that guy’. I don’t have the cool, focussed uber-nerd that doesn’t mind repeateing and repeating the way it works when I need to understand and fully grok the system.

Maybe It’s supposed to be me. Damn. I would love to have some of these old friends on speed dial.

Art

The artist made this work just because she could.

But the powers that be were not amused. It was thought that the work was destroying the order of our civilization. It must be stopped and further, all signs of the first work had to be destroyed, covered up as if it never was

The artist was unmoved. She did it again, regardless of the fate of her first work. It was her joy, and gave the hours of her life meaning. For what other purpose was she made, but for this very thing?

She did not resent the powers, and she gave them no mind.

I saw her work, and was impressed by the layers. The artful strokes showing an admirable strength, and the mix of medium were unusual.

Perhaps this work was destructive. But I was moved none the less.

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and a portrait of the artist
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maybe just a little

So yesterday I posted about dumb stuff.

But it was kinda fun. I am full of thoughts about all kinds of things, and why not just dump a few on my website? It’s not the LOUVRE, for goodness sakes!

it’s supposed to rain hard today. Maybe later, it hasn’t yet. I wore a good coat, though. Today, for the first time this year, I rode the bus.

My new car has been fun to drive, but I really shouldn’t commute to work if it is possible to ride the bus. The bus is morally superior, and superior in other ways.

But the bus requires taking the air. The air is nippy, and it might be wet. Therefore: coat.

My coat of choice is not a fashionable one. I wore it yesterday too, even though I was not bussing it. It’s an air force desert camoflage coat, with excellent pockets.

I like camoflage. I grew up with camoflage everywhere. All the boys wore camoflage. In fact, since the school started during moose hunting season, the school pretty much started with all the boys wearing as much camo as they owned. It was a badge of honor, to have all camo. It was a great advantage when we played capture the flag in the woods. it’s hard to capture what you can’t see.

Eventually, the school banned it, because it was too casual. We were not allowed to wear jeans either.

Anyway, when I grew up and could buy my own clothes, I liked to have some camo in my closet for certain types of tasks. It’s very durable and comfortable, especially the really old worn stuff.

When I went out to visit Telissa, whose husband was in the air force, I tried to find some camo in the thrift stores aroudn the base. In california, i hadn’ t found any good camo. It was everywhere in alaska, but not so much here. We couldn’t find any.

But later, her considerate husband gifted me with this nice coat. Awesome!

and I use it. It’s good for dog walking and bus stop waiting, and other warmth-requiring outdoor activities.

HOWEVER, people have opinions about it.

The react to the militariness of it.

how odd. It’s just a practical coat. but people ask me “Have you been in the military?”

And I explain how the coat was a gift from a thoughtful airforce friend.

But they assume things.

huh

And I realize that the only camo i see around here is ON people on active duty. Or little faux camo t-shirts or minis on size zero teenage girls. how weird.

I’ve long thought that clothing was a form of communication. Pairing harley davidson combat boots with a pale pink lace&cotton prom dress is a wardrobe pun, really.

But there are apparently regional dialects of wardrobe. The camo means one thing to me, and another to the soft and civilized californians.

I wear that coat and I am saying “Warm practical coat.”
The see me wear the coat and hear “Paramilitary nut job.”

Not the same language.

I am planning a trip to alaska. Chris needs to see it. I think I’m willing to go there for a QUICK trip to show him.

And i wonder….I remember camo being everywhere. But that was about 20 years ago. have things changed? Thank you, Walmart, clothing is plentiful and good quality. Maybe the era of using whatever is at hand is over, and specialization is upon us. Even in Alaska.

I hope not.

Northern Exposure was on TV on new years, and I made Chris watch some of it. I remember it was on TV, maybe reruns, when I first moved to California. That was what people knew as Alaska.

I thought Alaska was just life. I didn’t know. I watched the show a couple times to find out what people thought I was. I remember thinking it was pretty close, but somehow not quite.

So Chris and I watched the reruns, I with my more finely tuned perceptions.

OKAY, the fictional town was WAY too cute. It is obvious that the indoor scenes were not filmed in alaska. BECAUSE all the little house furnishings, the window handles and cupboards were too old.

They are similar to the hardware in my 50s house. And I remember the then I used to be, and how hungry I was for anything old. Something from the fifties was impossibly old.

There just wasn’t anything that old. If there was something from then…maybe a log cabin? Maybe a sled dog run? But those would not have had all the nice fixtures. or built-in cupboards of the ranch-style.

things were so new. and things were just so damn hard to get. I guess the military was really good at sending supplies, so it was easier for the poor folks (such as my family) to get the cast offs.

the richer folk literally FLEW TO SEATTLE TO GET HAIR CUTS. Unbelievable.

I think that my background is part of why I take the bus. I consider the bus a luxury. That view is not shared by most other Angelinos. But my town didn’t have a bus. I really wished i had a bus.

I wonder if they have a bus now. I know my street, Bull Moose Drive, is paved now, a development I am still surprised by.

I’m gonna take Chris to see it. And the lake, renamed Memory Lake. How ironic! Memories of what? Mosquitoes past? The place was virgin forest before they threw up a housing subdivision and named all the streets in two-word animal names–Bull Moose–Red Fox. The lake was called Swamp lake before the developers got there. But I spent many hours on the lake, swimming in the cold summers and iceskating in the freezing winters.

There are a lot of things I need to show Chris, and probably a lot of things I need to see again for myself.

Anyway. I thought I would post a little something.

First work day of 2008

so, this is it.

I’m working for the first time in 2008.

What am I doing?

I started out the day by going to executive headquarters and powering on their conference equipment and putting it in a ready state.

One room was uncabled and a TV antenna had been hooked up. I guess maybe someone wanted to watch TV badly enough to bring their own antenna. NOT permitted.

I unhooked the antenna and recabled the system for it’s intended purpose, VIDEO CONFERENCING.

Drove from Executive HQ to my actual office. Yes, I drove to work today. I would have taken the bus, and hopefully will do so tomorrow, but I had some equipment that I had to return. Monday I had a doctor’s appointment (all good news, yay!) and I had a trouble spot near that medical building. So, on friday, I packed my car with the needed equipment and brought it with me so that on monday I could do the tests.

WHICH MEANS, today, wednesday, i had to take my car back to work to return the equipment I had used the previous work day.

My job involves a lot of shuttling STUFF around.

And so, today, I shuttled things to the office. When I arrived at my building, I took the equipment out of my car and put them in the van.

Then I went upstairs to the 3rd floor to my cube. I started my email and all other computer things…admired my GTD-style empty inbox. Well, it had one email in it. A survey about how my company is doing regarding diversity. In GTD style, I did the survey RIGHT THEN.

They asked some vague questions and then got really personal. No, I am not transgender. I feel secure in saying that.

Then had a long intense conversation with co-worker about politics, religion, euthanasia (one of his favorite topics) and suburban sprawl (another favorite).

During this long conversation I drank some wretched instant cofee..I have run out of the good instant coffe. I like the international coffees sometimes. You know, the kind that are powdered and sweet and milky? And I try to get sugar free and fat free, which reduces the yumminess. This one, the wretched one, it a generic brand of the reasonably yummy kind. I have NO IDEA what flavor it’s supposed to be.

“Cafe Vienna” it’s called. It is not chocolate. It doesn’t taste vanilla. Or hazelnut or cinnamon…I can’t really tell what vienna is supposed to taste like. If I go to vienna, I don’t think I will lick it to find out.

I should throw the can out. It is my emergency reserve. I should have bought something yummy, like mocha or french vanilla hazelnut.

But I had the indefinable beverage and a banana.

I scheduled a work trip to antelope valley for next week. Handled some personal business. Bought firepit I’ve been admiring. Asked my Credit union to fax me a release of lien on the broken car.

I started to check other people’s blogs, but then I thought I should write on my own!

hence this post.

I must go to Hollywood soon. I should have left already, but I am eating a rice and corn cake with a piece of soy cheese on it. MMMmm. When I am done with my little sandwich I will leave.

I am musing about all the things that are broken.

Oh yeah..I called our support contract people and asked them to send (again) the three tv monitors that were supposed to be here two weeks ago.

“They aren’t there yet?”

“No, the guy from shipping said he had to call you.”

“Why would he ask you to call me?”

“He didn’t. He said HE would call you.”

“oh. What was his name?”

“I dont’ remember.”

“Hmmm.”

“could you go ask them when or if the TVs are being shipped and send me an email with the status?”

“Okay.”

“Okay, Happy new year!”

“You too.”

I changed the battery in our clock which had gone dead. I realized I need to clean the microwave.

When I was first here, I resisted cleaning the ferociously dirty microwave for at least 6 months. I knew that if I cleaned it I would always clean it, and I didn’t want it to be my responsibility.

Responsibility. Like, the clock has needed the battery changed since last friday. YET! I am the one who changed it, today, Wednsday. There is a common saying, “If you want something done right, you have to do it yourself.” I modify that here at work. “If I want something done (at all), I have to do it myself.”

Anyway, the microwave. I resisted as long as I could, but at last, my daily soup or frozen entree lunch was halted because of the smell. I could put something I intended to eat in the microwave that smells like that. I had to clean it.

Since then, I have come to terms. I microwave something almost daily. The others microwave only a few times a month.

So, maybe it is my job to clean the microwave. Since I use it most. I choose to ignore that before I arrived, the microwave began as wretchedly filthy.

That’s my day so far. I have finished my rice cake. I should probably get to hollywood.

I wish you all a productive new year.