Books I have read in the last two weeks

I dont’ have time to review them all, but I would like to keep a record of the books I read.

Open Secret by Alice Munro
The man in my basement by Walter Mosely
The Wife by Meg Wolitzer
I want to wear a red dress by Pearl Cleage
The Love Wife by jen Gish

Okay, I’m still in the m iddle of Love Wife. I ran out of book last thursday and Karen loaned it to me.

I have also listened to, recently, a whole lot of audio tapes with lecture series on them. Crazy wonderful, those are. LOVE LOVE LOVE the teaching company:

The history of freedom
The history of Myth
Alexander the Great and the Hellenic Age
The Middle Ages

I tried but got bogged down in:
Great Romans

too many names in that one, and I REALLY wanted to listen to the middle ages series, which was MUCH more absorbing. Middle ages knock me out.

I just checked out:
Churchill

That one should be interesting. More recent, anyway.

Okay, that’s enough for now.

Time flies

And I have a lot of goals that I need to get working on. I have been making progress, but there is still a ways to go.

For work, I managed to attain critical mass. I don’t know everything, but I know enough to trust my own judgment here. At last. Now I can get moving on THOSE goals.

And then there is my house. It is STILL a wreck after the ship show. Which was a huge success, and I hope we will have another. But 20+ ship nerds and all their toys took a complete re-org of the house. MY office was the one that became the storage room. Okay, it was pretty unpacked looking before, but now it’s wall to wall, I can barely move.

So, I need to get working on that.

And there are all kinds of other goals. My life is peaceful but very busy. And a little lonely. I would like to have more friends near me. I am very slow at making friends, there seems to be no way around it.

I do have excellent friends, but I have just moved, so I know no one close by. That will take some time.

And there is my writing. Can’t forget that.

Better not forget that!

I’m going to go work on it now, so I will close this post. I just wanted to put something up so as not to neglect my readers.

Sieze the Day…er..Month! This is a month of action

March First!

Maybe it is the only day of the year that is advice. Why not? It could be on a fortune cookie:

Confucius say: March first

Let us March, in any case. Let us march toward the goal, let us make strides to wherever we think is worth going.

Let us not drag and dally and dawdle. There are places to go and things to see and accomplish.

March!

(I’d like to dedicate this blog entry to my brother, who inspired and encouraged my interest in viewing words as verbs…who also inspired this blog entry, one that is always in my top three most popular posts..check it out)

The first fruits

I bought a lemon tree for my front yard. We had no fruits trees before that.

But today, the first lemon was ripe. It has been in the tree, ripening slowly, the whole time. And today, I plucked it.

It is juicy and sour.

I am pleased. I love my home.

Good News! The spamments have stopped

My brother upgraded the MT software, and now the spam is filtered. It’s a beautiful thing.

I have not spent much time on the blog this week, though, either for deleting comments or writing. I got sick again.

SIGH

I am hoping tha this particular strain of cold is nasty, and that it is the power of the bug rather than the weakness of my immune system. I don’t usually get sick this often.

Book Review: Walkin’ the Dog by Walter Mosley

My home is in Claremont. I picked it carefully, because I wanted a “good” neighborhood. You all know what that means, right?

I wasn’t so sure that I knew what that meant. It is my habit to question everything, and I think that the idea of a “good” neighborhood is potentially prejudiced. So, I wanted hard data to make the determination. What makes a neighborhood good or bad, really? It’s a complicated question, but I chose to look at crime.

I went to this site to take a look at crime statistics, and just to keep it simple, I focused on murder. What I found shocked me.

How many murders does it take to be a crime wave? How much does it take to get press?

In 2003, Compton had 43 murders, Inglewood had 32 and Long Beach had 49. That is a lot of murders. But not, apparently, enough to worry about. It did not raise the alarm, not for those cities. These areas are acknowledged black neighborhoods. Known ‘hoods. And murder has come to be accepted there.

But accepted by whom, exactly?

My town, Claremont, had 0 murders. It is part of its appeal, to be quite honest. I prefer to live in a place with a low chance of being murdered.

But we share a border with a known brown town, Pomona, which has a high Latino population. Pomona had 17 murders in 2003. In 2002, there were 18 and 2001 had 19.

Claremont stayed steady at zero.

What’s up with that? A line, a two dimensional line of no thickness at all separates these two places. One side, someone murders someone else every three weeks. The other, people don’t kill each other.

People say, “Just avoid Pomona. It’s not a good neighborhood.”

But people are dying over there. Is that what we are supposed to do for our neighbors? Just avoid them when they are in trouble?

Pomona kills people. But Claremont doesn’t. What does Claremont know that Pomona doesn’t?

I almost feel like there should be an exchange program. Maybe some people from Claremont should go over and have a cultural exchange with Pomona, so the Pomona residents could learn to use alternatives to murder to solve their life situations.

People say to me: “Oh, Pomona is suffering under discrimination and poverty.”

But being poor doesn’t make you kill. And discrimination doesn’t either. It’s a separate leap, to murder. What inspires that leap?

This is a sticking point in my relationship with my neighbor, Pomona. How do I relate to this city that allows murders at such a high rate?

To my jaw-dropping amazement, I read a book about this very problem. Not exactly my same viewpoint, but a new angle on the same problem.

Walkin’ the Dog by the incomparable Walter Mosley tells about a murderer. A man out of prison for nearly a decade, walking the free streets of South Central and trying to figure out his life. What does he do with himself and his rage and his unexpectedly returned independence?

He struggles. He thinks, and he works and he talks. He struggles against the gravity-like forces that pull him back to crime and prison. They are the things he knows, after all.

But he wrestles the demons and finds a flicker of epiphany. This book, like many great books, cannot be adequately reduced to plot summary. The story is an amazing journey of bleak honesty and real hope.

I have no doubt that the problems in Pomona and Inglewood and Long Beach are partly the responsibility of the police and the legal system. I also believe that the people in those cities have decided to allow a heightened amount of crime. They share the blame.

And I have a share of the blame too. I participate in the blind eye, in the lack of outrage and grief. I don’t know what I can do. But I know that I have to keep looking for a way to work on making it right. There may be an epiphany waiting for me, and that’s worth looking for.

Ah, look at all the nice people!

Thank you all, for your nice comments. I will not do away with comments, despite the nasty spammenters…

I have several posts I want to write:

* a bit about Proust, who is substantially difficult to read, but has devoted fans (I read one of his books for my book Group)

* this cool piece about classism and the habit of murder (and a book that actually validates my theory!)

* a review of “A burning house” which is stories about people living and dying with AIDS

* this COOL COOL new organization method by Kepner Tregoe that rocks

But I have too much to say and not enough time. I discovered that one of my major problems right now is that I have not been getting enough sleep

No sleep makes it hard to think. And thinking makes it hard to sleep. The last few nights have been full of half waking thoughts. Which is a problem.

maybe if I stop and write out some of the things that I want to post about I will sleep better.

last night I went home and fell asleep right after dinner. At about 6:45 I feel asleep in front of the TV playing “An American in Paris” and then Chris woke me up to send me to bed.

I feel a little rested. But more sleep is needed.

I’ll keep you informed. Thank you all very much for your attention.

another thing…

It is wonderful when I get a comment from a reader. They are not frequent, but they are incredibly welcome. Thank you for your contributions, my readers.

However, in spite of my huge delight when I get a relevant comment, i am really thinking about turning off the comment function on this site.

I get thousands of spam comments every week. This means that I am on my site doing maintenance every day, but I am not always able to add new content because my time is used up in sorting through horrible spam.

Lately, the spam has been mostly medical and gambling sites. Previously it has been porn. So I guess the tone is improving, but the quantity is increasing as well.

I just don’t know what to do about this. There are probably solutions out there…I just love the few comments I do recive so much, it has been worth sorting the spam for it…

there is a lot of spam out there, people.

SIGH

the blog is languishing.

I’m sorry. I have a lot on my mind. So much, really, that I have about a half dozen really long and very interesting and intelligent blog posts that I would like to do.

But I am a little depressed about the lack of interest on my blog. I should not say that, because those of you who DO read it might take it personally. I thank you all, dear readers, for your faithful interest.

But…well…I guess being smart and erudite wears thin. Or maybe I’m not as erudite as I wish I were. SIGH.

I met someone, and she is funny and interesting. She also has a blog:
Little Miss Can’t Be Wrong Ever

her blog is amusing, mostly about her personal life, little funny stories. Exactly the sort of thing that I usually DON”T write about, because I want to be a little more universally appealing.

Well, she has a larger audience for her blog than i do. Hmph.

Maybe she just has a larger circle of aquaintances than i do.

…this does not make it better…

So, this is a whiny post about how nobody pays attention to me.

I am very tempted to delete it, because i should not have something so self-serving and unflattering posted.

However, I am not sure I will have time to write something better in the near future.

SIGH