I remember when I was trying to find myself after I divorced my first husband. I had too many and not enough words to come to grips with what my life had become.
I had very little, but I did have my piano.
And I played that piano. There may not have been words, but there was music.
With the music, I could reach the feelings that I couldn’t express. After time passed I could move into my life again.
Yesterday, I was talking with a friend about a writing project I want to start
Except I really don’t want to start it.
It’s a tough one. It will require a lot from me. I will have to grind up my soul again.
I have a lot of reasons not to do it.
And the one reason that counts.
It’s calling me.
But I don’t want to answer.
I’m tired. I have done this before. What do I really need to prove?
Maybe it’s enough.
So as I was telling her all about it, and all the reasons why I don’t want to go there, and all the reasons it’s pointless
I said, “Maybe I need to make some time to play my keyboard.”
They are adjacent, even if they don’t overlap. Music and words occupy different regions of the imagination.
Music can be there for me before words are ready.
And when I can find my way to one that could be the lookout point which shows me where to go the rest of the way.