I have plans. I want to reach for all that is possible. Big goals and big plans. I could plan out what needs to happen to get to where I wanted to be. First I would have to organize this, then this next thing was the key to unlocking the rest.

I do love my goals. I always have several going on. I push them forward, aware of where they sit, what I am waiting on and when I should put to get an update because things have slowed down.

This instinct helps me in my profession as a project manager. I love to track the movement toward the goal and remove all the obstacles, no matter how small. I will make three paths to to goal, just to make it as easy as possible for my teams to get there.

I’ll write out possibilities, seeing if a tweak could make it ever better. If we did it this way, would it be faster?

And if tried that, maybe we could capture another prize. Let’s see if that can happen!

And these plans are all in motion. Push push push push

The flow of motion is a joy.

Until

STOP

Blocked

But I had a plan! I was going to to this one thing, and then it would lead to the next thing

Why no!?

I want to execute my plan. It’s a beautiful plan.
All my energy was channeled into making it happen.

I can’t handle a NO.

I try again. And again.

NO

I throw myself against the blocked door. Give me an answer!

No.
I might not like it, but no is an answer.

Beating myself against a locked door is a waste of time.

The sooner I accept the answer the sooner I can get my energy back.

That beautiful plan needs a re-mapping. The no is not about me.

It is a “try again.”

I can still find a way to that prize. I’m still looking.