Good news and bad news

The good news is, I’ve got my new (it’s not a year yet, it’s still new) job figured out.

The bad news is, I’ve got my new job figured out.

Well, I finally went and spent some time at headquarters, and fully mind-melded with those there. I feel like I picked their brains dry, and I know what I need to know. I also know when they are talking but really aren’t saying anything.

SO. This means I have a clear view of the battlefield ahead of me, and can march on the enemy of disorder and chaos.

It is not a pretty picture, but I at least know I’m seeing the whole thing and can trust my own judgement.

The needle has dropped in the groove.

After 8 months of trying to understand what the heck I was supposed to be doing here, I now know. And it is a great relief to get working on all the chaos.

But…this means my Field Marshall personality is in full swing, and I want to start throwing myself into this project.

I like projects. But just because this one I have found at work is new and exciting doesn’t mean that I should neglect my other important goals.

It’s been kind of hard for me to write lately. Hence, my blog is suffering. I apologize for that, friends.

Bear with me. I am struggling for balance in my passionate pursuits.

reading and listening

I finished the LATW drama “The Cocktail Hour”

It was a good play. I adore all their recorded plays. This one was rather modern in that it ironically referred to itself a lot. Very funny.

I have started the Teaching company’s Churchill. I did not know that Winston Churchill was half American!

Maybe I’ll have more to stay about that as I finish it.

In praise of Laura Scott

I have foot issues, to be honest. I walk hard and fast, and I am not particularly physically aware. I don’t think about the pieces of my body, not without concentration.

So I am prone to twisting ankles. And those cute little slip-ons, ‘mules’ or even flip-flops…not gonna happen. I am prone to striding forward and kicking them completely off my foot, or even more painfully, kicking them slightly forward to bring the back edge of the shoed irectly into my soft heel when I step down again. OW!

I like cute shoes. I wish I could put my pretty feet into pretty shoes. But i have learned that they have to be tied to my foot, with laces or strapped around the ankle, or I just can wear them. Boots work too. They are very securely fastened to my body.

And to add insult to my disability, I have had to wear orthopedic inserts to keep from having painful throbbing muscles and bones in my legs. yuk.

My fashion sense suffers.

BUT! I have discovered a really really great shoe designer. I have two pairs of shoes from her, both extremely cute.

Laura Scott

These are her shoes I’m wearing today:
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Like how my hose already has a blown out toe? sigh…This is the problem us tall women have with hose. You can find a picture of my first pair from Laura Scott here
I find her shoes at Sears, and they are so comfy! Both pairs have a little heel, 2 or 3 inches, and are unique and interesting. But despite the heel, these are comfortable enough to walk around mall in two hours. Now that’s comfortable.

Ms. Scott deserves recognition. These are awesome little cute shoes. Check her out, you won’t be sorry.

Books I have read in the last two weeks

I dont’ have time to review them all, but I would like to keep a record of the books I read.

Open Secret by Alice Munro
The man in my basement by Walter Mosely
The Wife by Meg Wolitzer
I want to wear a red dress by Pearl Cleage
The Love Wife by jen Gish

Okay, I’m still in the m iddle of Love Wife. I ran out of book last thursday and Karen loaned it to me.

I have also listened to, recently, a whole lot of audio tapes with lecture series on them. Crazy wonderful, those are. LOVE LOVE LOVE the teaching company:

The history of freedom
The history of Myth
Alexander the Great and the Hellenic Age
The Middle Ages

I tried but got bogged down in:
Great Romans

too many names in that one, and I REALLY wanted to listen to the middle ages series, which was MUCH more absorbing. Middle ages knock me out.

I just checked out:
Churchill

That one should be interesting. More recent, anyway.

Okay, that’s enough for now.

Time flies

And I have a lot of goals that I need to get working on. I have been making progress, but there is still a ways to go.

For work, I managed to attain critical mass. I don’t know everything, but I know enough to trust my own judgment here. At last. Now I can get moving on THOSE goals.

And then there is my house. It is STILL a wreck after the ship show. Which was a huge success, and I hope we will have another. But 20+ ship nerds and all their toys took a complete re-org of the house. MY office was the one that became the storage room. Okay, it was pretty unpacked looking before, but now it’s wall to wall, I can barely move.

So, I need to get working on that.

And there are all kinds of other goals. My life is peaceful but very busy. And a little lonely. I would like to have more friends near me. I am very slow at making friends, there seems to be no way around it.

I do have excellent friends, but I have just moved, so I know no one close by. That will take some time.

And there is my writing. Can’t forget that.

Better not forget that!

I’m going to go work on it now, so I will close this post. I just wanted to put something up so as not to neglect my readers.

Sieze the Day…er..Month! This is a month of action

March First!

Maybe it is the only day of the year that is advice. Why not? It could be on a fortune cookie:

Confucius say: March first

Let us March, in any case. Let us march toward the goal, let us make strides to wherever we think is worth going.

Let us not drag and dally and dawdle. There are places to go and things to see and accomplish.

March!

(I’d like to dedicate this blog entry to my brother, who inspired and encouraged my interest in viewing words as verbs…who also inspired this blog entry, one that is always in my top three most popular posts..check it out)

The first fruits

I bought a lemon tree for my front yard. We had no fruits trees before that.

But today, the first lemon was ripe. It has been in the tree, ripening slowly, the whole time. And today, I plucked it.

It is juicy and sour.

I am pleased. I love my home.

Good News! The spamments have stopped

My brother upgraded the MT software, and now the spam is filtered. It’s a beautiful thing.

I have not spent much time on the blog this week, though, either for deleting comments or writing. I got sick again.

SIGH

I am hoping tha this particular strain of cold is nasty, and that it is the power of the bug rather than the weakness of my immune system. I don’t usually get sick this often.

Book Review: Walkin’ the Dog by Walter Mosley

My home is in Claremont. I picked it carefully, because I wanted a “good” neighborhood. You all know what that means, right?

I wasn’t so sure that I knew what that meant. It is my habit to question everything, and I think that the idea of a “good” neighborhood is potentially prejudiced. So, I wanted hard data to make the determination. What makes a neighborhood good or bad, really? It’s a complicated question, but I chose to look at crime.

I went to this site to take a look at crime statistics, and just to keep it simple, I focused on murder. What I found shocked me.

How many murders does it take to be a crime wave? How much does it take to get press?

In 2003, Compton had 43 murders, Inglewood had 32 and Long Beach had 49. That is a lot of murders. But not, apparently, enough to worry about. It did not raise the alarm, not for those cities. These areas are acknowledged black neighborhoods. Known ‘hoods. And murder has come to be accepted there.

But accepted by whom, exactly?

My town, Claremont, had 0 murders. It is part of its appeal, to be quite honest. I prefer to live in a place with a low chance of being murdered.

But we share a border with a known brown town, Pomona, which has a high Latino population. Pomona had 17 murders in 2003. In 2002, there were 18 and 2001 had 19.

Claremont stayed steady at zero.

What’s up with that? A line, a two dimensional line of no thickness at all separates these two places. One side, someone murders someone else every three weeks. The other, people don’t kill each other.

People say, “Just avoid Pomona. It’s not a good neighborhood.”

But people are dying over there. Is that what we are supposed to do for our neighbors? Just avoid them when they are in trouble?

Pomona kills people. But Claremont doesn’t. What does Claremont know that Pomona doesn’t?

I almost feel like there should be an exchange program. Maybe some people from Claremont should go over and have a cultural exchange with Pomona, so the Pomona residents could learn to use alternatives to murder to solve their life situations.

People say to me: “Oh, Pomona is suffering under discrimination and poverty.”

But being poor doesn’t make you kill. And discrimination doesn’t either. It’s a separate leap, to murder. What inspires that leap?

This is a sticking point in my relationship with my neighbor, Pomona. How do I relate to this city that allows murders at such a high rate?

To my jaw-dropping amazement, I read a book about this very problem. Not exactly my same viewpoint, but a new angle on the same problem.

Walkin’ the Dog by the incomparable Walter Mosley tells about a murderer. A man out of prison for nearly a decade, walking the free streets of South Central and trying to figure out his life. What does he do with himself and his rage and his unexpectedly returned independence?

He struggles. He thinks, and he works and he talks. He struggles against the gravity-like forces that pull him back to crime and prison. They are the things he knows, after all.

But he wrestles the demons and finds a flicker of epiphany. This book, like many great books, cannot be adequately reduced to plot summary. The story is an amazing journey of bleak honesty and real hope.

I have no doubt that the problems in Pomona and Inglewood and Long Beach are partly the responsibility of the police and the legal system. I also believe that the people in those cities have decided to allow a heightened amount of crime. They share the blame.

And I have a share of the blame too. I participate in the blind eye, in the lack of outrage and grief. I don’t know what I can do. But I know that I have to keep looking for a way to work on making it right. There may be an epiphany waiting for me, and that’s worth looking for.