_Child of my Heart _by Alice McDermott

The narrator of this story is Theresa, a 15-year-old only child. The child of her heart is her cousin, eight-year-old Daisy. It’s a summer story, the time when school is on vacation and the long days belong to the children.

As simple as the surface level story is, there are so many complicated and beautiful currents running below the surface. Theresa’s love for her little cousin, and the realization that something is wrong puts a tension and sorrow through the story. Theresa is only 15, but in charge of so many young lives. She is a child, but taking on the responsibilities of an adult. The true adults around her have the freedom to abdicate their responsibilities, the care of their children, to this 15 year old. She is expected to do so much.

Her relationship with the aging artist, the father of her only paid babysitting ward, brings in tensions of art and even sexuality. Well, her own budding beauty and sexuality seems to turn any adult male into a drooling imbecile. She has to respond and deflect advances before she quite knows what they mean.

And then the neglected kids next door, so needy and unintentionally destructive, keep her realizing how lonely it is possible for people to be.

It’s a beautifully written story, a perfect slow bobbing rhythm, like an inner tube on the surface of the water.

I broke the Christmas tree

I didn’t mean to.

Last weekend, we decorated it all pretty. We had lights from a previous year, Red and White like a peppermint.

Chris and I wrapped the lights around the tree, and then hung up decorations his Grandmother had given us. We put up red and green balls around it too.

On the top, I hung my traditional icon of Saint Nicholas. He looks very nice up there. THe tree was beautiful.

On Monday, Chris told me that he wanted to have his mother over for a special birthday dinner on friday. I thought that was a marvelous idea, and started to clean things up to be ready for the event.

I got out the vaccum, and I plugged it in to the outlet on the top of the string of lights. It was most convenient for my cord. I vaccuumed everywhere, and the floor looked nice.

But the lights stopped working. It turns out that the electricity drawn by the vaccuum fried the fragile christmas lights.

We had to buy more.

We looked everywhere, but the red and white christmas lights are not available. There are blue and white. There are green and red. But no red and white.

We went with green and red.

“Chris,” I said. “Most people only get to decorate their christmas tree once a year.”

“Are you saying we are getting to decorate it twice?” He smiled at me. “Sit down, I’ll hang the ornaments.”

I watched him put all the ornaments back on the tree. It looks nice, but I am sorry I broke the tree.

Love is….

Love is setting the timer on the thermostat to turn on the heater before your sweetheart wakes up in the morning.

That’s the kind of love you can stick a fork in.

Happy December

It is a new month.

this is the month of many things.

We have the solstice, on the 21st

We have christmas, and new year’s eve.

We have the birthday of Chris’s mother.

Many things, which require much preparation.

Plus, it’s pretty dark. And cold. Both of those being relative quantities.

I wish you all a marvelous December.