Dreaming of Me

“I remembered what I dreamed last night.”

I had asked him when he first woke up, as usual, but Chris couldn’t remember his dream right away.

“You did? What did you dream about, baby?”

“We were in New York for some reason, and you were there too.”

“I was with you?” I’ve never been with him the times he’s gone to New York.

“Yeah, and you came up to me and said, ‘We have to go!’ Apparently you had tickets to somewhere.”

“I did?”

“Yeah…to India.”

“India! I would love to go to India!”

“yeah, well, you wanted me to go right then, you said we had to leave in a half an hour. But we weren’t even packed! I asked you what airline the tickets were for, but you weren’t sure. And you didn’t know which airport we were supposed to leave from.”

“Wow, I was totally unconcerned.”

“Yeah, and I was trying to look it up. You knew what time it was supposed to go, and you thought it was Air India, so I was trying to look it up. And I was trying to type in Expedia, but I kept getting it wrong.”

“You were dreaming of the internet? You were dreaming that you were looking something up on the internet?”

“And I was worried that we didn’t have anything packed. I asked you how long we were going to be there. You said 14 days, or two weeks or nine days. So, I couldn’t figure out what we needed to have ready.”

“I wasn’t very helpful was I? Boy, I’m mean to you in your dreams.”

“Yeah!”

“That’s a great dream baby. I’m glad you remembered it.”

HAPPY SOLSTICE EVERYONE!

This is a special day. This is the day that the earth begins it’s change.

Up until now, 2006 has been getting lighter. Lighter and more sunshine. It has been getting slightly warmer too.

But now, NOW, the earth will get darker. More night.

Interstingly, it will get hotter for a while longer. The next 3 months should be extremely hot. Maybe 4 months.

But it will be darker.

And I think everyone should notice. I myself will be eating barbeque with Chris tonight.

TV Review: _The Red Green Show_:the last season

My friend described this show to me long before I actually got to see it.

“There is this guy, Red Green, and he’s part of the Possum Lodge. He’s hilarious. He has all these friends and his nephew Harold…. Every episode at the end, they say the man’s prayer: I’m a man…and I can change…if I have to…I guess…”

I honestly couldn’t picture it, but he was so excited. I finally got a chance to see it for myself this last year. I have not been this into a Canadian PBS show since Degrassi!

The show is only on certain PBS stations. So, it’s hard to see. Second, 2006 marks the 15th and final year of The Red Green Show.
Thank God for reruns. I’ll be watching this–waiting for all the episodes I’ve missed. They also made a movie Duct Tape Forever! I’ll have to keep an eye out for it.

It’s so silly, and very refreshing. It’s a nice change to have a truly entertaining show that’s utterly clean. Comedy that’s not shocking? That takes talent.

Of course, Red Green (actor Steve Smith) is part of every show. He also has a rotating cast of regulars who come through. There is Dalton Humphrey, the proprietor of the Everything Store, and Winston Rothschild III of Rothchild’s Septic Sucking Services, just to name a few. My favorite, of course, is Red Green’s nephew Harold, played by Patrick McKenna. Harold has a lot of trouble with the ladies, and everything his Uncle Red has to say he takes with a grain of salt. Red has no respect for Harold’s opinions either, though, so it works out.

Duct tape, backyard projects, practical jokes and misadventures take up their time. Flannel shirts are the fashion.

The show has virtually no women, although the personalities of the lodge members’ wives dominate the background. They are frequently referenced while the guys are considering their plans. Of course, Red Green has this advice: “Remember, if the women don’t find you handsome, they should at least find you handy.”

Each episode makes the grade by following their formula, but still being totally unexpected.

And any TV show ever that makes it through to 15 seasons is remarkable. It is hard to convey the genius of this show; you just have to see it.

You really have to see it.

_Women in Love _ by D.H. Lawrence

D.H. Lawrence is scandalous. He’s most famous for Lady Chatterly’s Lover, which announces its scandalousness loudly by having “Lover” in the title. It screams “Sex is happening here!”

This meant that he got banned and censored. Even better! Nothing so titillating as a banned book.

Yeah, except…A lot of the time the books that are banned are not as raunchy as the imagination of the people who banned them. True smut is seldom banned; it’s just put in the back room and left for the pervs who want it.

And D.H. Lawrence’s smut is sort of weak and intellectual. Yes, Lady Chatterly had a lover. And yes, Lawrence tells all. But when you get down to it, the all is kind of disappointed. He tells it like it is, and wouldn’t that be the definition of “prosaic”?

In daily lives, relationships are like that. They’re not scandalous—even the scandalous ones.

Well, I read Lady Chatterly a long time ago, and that’s not the book I’m reviewing now. I picked up Women in Love because I knew D.H. Lawrence was a highly regarded author, and I had only read LCL and one short story by him. I wondered if other his other books were worth reading.

So, this morning, I finished Women in Love. The story starts with two sisters, Ursula and Gudrun. Both of them were extremely modern ladies, but with really old-fashioned names. Gudrun especially has that contrast. I didn’t even know Gudrun was a name, it’s that archaic, but she herself was an artist. She made her living at it, even. Ursula was a little more tame; she was a teacher.

There were the men, too. Gerald Crich and Rupert Birkin reveal themselves as the love interests for the two women in love.

All these four are strained to the breaking point with their sensitivity. They are constantly in rapturous heights, or seriously believe that they will die of their disappointments. It seemed comical to me, after the first time, how overcome they are by their feelings.

And they are constantly on very high intellectual discussions. What is the meaning of things, really? And they come to conclusions, by paths not apparent to others, which are very definite. All so important.

Love to them is not a soft pillow to fall into and languish upon. It is an argument to resolve, or a cause to take up. They snuggle sometimes, and ask “Do you love me?” of one another. But they had previously torn to shreds any assumptions about love and what the word means, so both the question and the answer are blind groping.

Oh yes, and add to the two cute hetero couples a strong homoerotic tension between Rupert and Gerald. Whew. Even I felt a little steamed up by some of the scenes between those two.

All of these characters seem to want so much. They don’t believe in anything they have known, but they want to find something that they don’t know to believe in.

…a phrase which sounds utterly nonsensical and as if I could have lifted it directly out of the novel. I don’t think I am inadvertently quoting, though…

These people are so modern; they seem unable to exist with any satisfaction in the world they are in. Gudrun, who is the most modern of the group, can find no satisfaction of mind anywhere. She does however, enjoy nice stockings. That particular detail shows that Lawrence is in charge of this book of contrasts.

Bibliomania tells me “Lawrence maintained that it was his finest work.” It was finished in 1916, but not published until 1921. I can tell that it fishes deep into the spirit of the time. Many of the ideas and impulses described seem so in keeping with what I know of the period. I could imagine that it would resonate strongly with his contemporaries.

It’s not an easily understood book, but I’m glad I read it. Especially now that I know he thought it was his best. I don’t feel like rushing out and reading the rest of his stuff though. But if one came to hand, I wouldn’t turn it away.

baby, you were born to blog

I watched a South Park episode last night. Kenny, whose most prominent feature is his propensity to die, had gained proficiency at a video game. The game was a war between heaven and hell. He was extremely good at it, achieving level 60

Of course, he died, but it turned out that his death served a purpose. The video game really was a simulation for the war between heaven and hell. His skill at the video game saved the world.

Kenny’s propensity to die, combined with his skill at the video game, had saved the world.

There are people who have incredible skills that are meant for highly specific intersections of the time-space continuum.

Remember Rubik’s cubes? My brother had a friend back then who was so good at solving Rubik’s cubes that he had to lubricate them to allow for the super-fast manipulations. What a genius! Incredible!

The rest of us cheated, and moved the stickers. But this one guy, he was a master.

What might have happened if he was born 50 years earlier? He would never have discovered his talent.

There are possibilities that are for only that moment. Right now, not any other time, blogging is happening. I have a feeling that blogs will evolve into something else pretty soon, but RIGHT NOW there are some earth-shaking bloggers out there.

Instapundit has a blog. He is like a perpetual motion machine of blogging. With the incredibly wide and sometimes deep levels of curiousity and knowledge he has, can you imagine what he would be like to live with before he had to blog to put that into?I imagine that his wife was relieved when he began to blog.

And in a totally different genre of blogging, there is James Lileks
His perpetually funny and often profound writing is also massively popular.

These two guys are totally different in style, but similar in that they are born to this time, this space, this blog

My blog has dropped from popularity lately. Not so many people are stopping by, because I have not been maintaining my ‘web-presence.’

I try to tell myself that I am a different sort of writer, when faced with the web titans I have mentioned.

But as for some people…They were born to blog.

The Library

I moved into my new home last year. In August. Or was it September?

And it is a nice home. I enjoy it. There is a small kitchen, one bathroom, and three bedrooms.

Of course, one bedroom is to sleep in. The other bedroom is for Chris to use as his office.

and then the third. The third bedroom has remained as a place to stick other things. All the unfinished things, not yet ‘away.’

It is the junk room.

But no more. I cleaned it out. I cleared the floor. I found a place to put things away. Even if it was just the garage. It has a corner vanity, where I keep my jewelry. I have a lot of it, you know. But there is a coffee table, which holds my laptop and the cat, much of the time. There is also a comfortable armchair, pulled close to the spot for the laptop. The cat is in this the rest of the time. And a few blank places along the wall. But I ordered bookshelves for them. By next week, it will be the

LIBRARY

and not a bad one. It makes me happy to sit in it.

HOORAY! No more junk room! I posses all of my home now!

Whoops

Friends, I apologize. My ISP screwed up the site, and it was down for several days. It’s up now, and there should be no more of the ridiculous password nonsense.

BOUND

I knew it was coming. It was waiting for me when I got home.

I picked it up. I had to find a knife to open it. But I had to pace around is an addled way first.

I found a knife. I sat on the couch. Chris sat with me.

I slit the tape, but I had to stop. I held it a moment longer. Then I opened it all the way.

I held it. It rested in my hands. I turned it over. Chris touched my shoulder.

Only a few moments more. I couldn’t breathe.

I put it away.

I paced around the house in my addled way again.

I knew the next day at work would be long.

It was. But I didn’t forget about it.

It was waiting for me when I got home.

This time, I remembered to breathe when I held it. I flipped the pages.

I smelled it. It smelled subtley wonderful. I know the smell will mellow nicely.

I walked around addled some more, but this time I was holding it.

Then, I sat down to read it.

It was bound. It was a book. It was mine.

It felt like a book. When I read it, it had pages with numbers. I turned them, and I read it again like I wanted to know what happened.

I got about 20 pages in before I stopped myself, laughing. Of course, I already know what happened.

I wrote it.

They call it a slippery slope because it’s easier to go down than up

So Chris and I went to the Grand Canyon this weekend. It was a good getaway

This became my fourth visit to the spot. It is beautiful and amazing. I look at it, and two things amaze me.

First, that this happened. How did this big canyon happen? The river ran through the rock and wore it away. But that didn’t happen anywhere else. There are no other huge canyons like it anywhere.

It is vast and astonishing. But the water was only doing what was in it’s nature. And the rock was just doing what was it’s nature. Makes me want to consider the nature of the other things I encounter.

Second, that it is a long way down and I want to see it. I wonder if I will ever manage to get there. I want to try. Chris says he will maybe try with me. That it is a good goal.

He talked me into trying to climb Mt. Whitney. That was a sort of conquering thing, “I AM KING OF THE HILL!”

But the Grand Canyon is down. It is not conqueroring. It is exploring. I personally want to see what it looks like down there. We’ll see if I ever make it.