Full up

So this weekend was really exciting-in a completely internal way.

The prior week was great; I’ve got some things going on a work that are keeping me very sharp. It’s cool, I love a challenge, and it kind of spills over.

And then I got in this discussion…It was the start of a very long discussion with a pup here…I shouldn’t have, because it was about religion and we didn’t agree. And he trips my triggers, because he is so much like a lot of people I used to know.

But it was a very hieghtening conversation…About the meaning of meaning, as held by words and the laws of God and man. AND because I couldn’t finish it, it left me all restless and feeling like I should pace and talk to myself.

So then the next day, I saw Spiderman 2. A very cool movie. Also left me thinking about a lot of things. I really appreciate the heroic ideals that superheroes and comics show…

Which leads up to the NEXT day, sunday, where I got to actually meet and talk to one of the writers for Superman comic books. wow.

he had written this graphic novel “It’s a Bird…” about the problems with superman. The character in the book was semi-autobiographical. He was trying to deal with what it meant to be superman, and why anyone should care.

And we all went on about creativity and humanness and writing and MORE stuff that practically made me want to jump out of my skin with excitement.

There is so much to think about and do!

And I AM doing things. I am working hard, every day, on this book that I want to finish. I have a long way to finishing. hmmm….it just takes time.

One of the things about my heightening discussion…The meaning of meaning…It is hard to talk about it…I know what I know now. I don’t have to talk about it anymore. I can, and it is exciting to talk about it, but because I know what I know is true, I don’t require validation. I don’t HAVE to talk about it.

And on that same note, I know that what I am writing [my book] is worthwhile. I don’t require validaton. But the getting it out there, doing it justice, is tough. It takes some perseverance.

Which is to say…Pacing and restlessness are fine, but I’m in this for the long haul. I have to be careful not to burn myself out…