I worked late today.

Some unexpected stuff came up, and I couldn’t put it off or it would have haunted me over the weekend.

This week has been torqed because of swimming lessons. Swimming lessons every weeknight at 610

I dont get home until 530, and it take 15 minutes to drive to the pool,

So it’s NON STOP. Work the home and no time to eat, then off to the public space of my swim-terrified kid and home and the bedtime routine and the exhaustion and repeat

so this friday, I had to stay late. Which made me too late to take Veronica swimming.

I had been keyed up all day PUSHING to get the stuff at work done.

I tried calling everyone I knew for the drive home. I kinda wanted some human company.

NO ONE answered.

Someone finally called me back as I got home, and we talked for 15 minutes. It was great.

THen I got to be alone. ALONE.

I made food. I ate it.

i watched TV

I was so grateful to be alone for once this week.

As desperate as I was to talk to someone on the road home, NOW I am desperate to be alone.

It’s like I needed shades to transition into the next phase.

Now? I am eager to be alone for a long time.